Happy Days!

If only - but I’m feeling better and haven’t “jumped the shark” - this will probably the last negative post I write, feel things are back on track, nothing has changed just realise I need to enjoy things a lot more and feel better about myself and not take things to seriously and have a little fun once in a while, it’s not enough to just go out - how often that might be or not!

I’ve really changed the way I think about things in a way I did’t realise until recently - I didn’t like being the way I was and even though I’m basically the same now I do feel more positive and try to see the good in things and not lets things get me down, that’s really the best way I can move on and get over myself - I think the biggest hurdle to overcome is my own attitude to things and that’s something I can change, there are a few things I’ve done like write posts like this and also I’ve done other things as well to make me feel better like talking to more people, meeting new people and getting back in touch with people which have all added up to make me feel less alone which is nice!

I’ve got a long way to go but like the anticipation of something good happening and when it does like a breakthrough at work or just getting out I really like it and when I don’t go out I don’t mind so much and if I do feel down I can just think about the times when I have felt good - I tried to supress the times I felt really happy as they also made me feel sad that I wasn’t like that anymore but now I look forward to being like that again and I’m ready to go for an opportunity whenever it comes and make sure it is what it is and not mess things up like I have done recently, the best chance to take is the more certain ones - and I can get to the point where I will be more happy!