Left out in the cold?

I posted something on Facebook about me feeling left out, which isn’t entirely true, just feel that way from time-to-time and not sure why that is the case. I’ve always been an outsider in any situation but once I get speaking to people or whatever I feel involved and don’t feel that way. I’ve always been that way I think and it really wasn’t an issue until now, as I’ve come through a lot of things and this has become a problem even though it wasn’t one before.

I’ve liked posting what is going on on Twitter and Facebook and glad of the replies to things I do say, but I’m going to a lot more things now and also with new work and new people I’m starting to feel that I’m not really where I should be - not with work but in my life generally, I’m a lot more positive now and just want to be included a lot more but finding this is a difficult hurdle or overcome as I’ve been this way for a long time, but only now has it become an issue I do want to overcome.

I can’t change everything I would like to about what has happened in the past and how that makes me as a person now, but I just want to change enough so I feel better about myself, I’m probably not being patient enough even though I know that things will take time and nothing will happen in the near future - I’d still like it to anyway, but I know that’s not realistic, I do feel a lot better now and feel like I did a few months ago but still with the new confidence and drive to change, just need a direction and a purpose and I’ll get back on track I think.

I’ve set myself some goals to achieve, some of which I know I won’t hit - but the only way I can really make a change is to have something to aim for and even if it isn’t possible to give it a try anyway - I’ve also learned not to overthink things but I still do it anyway but at least I know I’m doing it and things will get better for me and I don’t feel left out in the cold.