1. Getting back on track

    With all the things that’s happened I realised I need people to confide in, it was good to catch up with some old friends, I don’t tend to have any these days - don’t know why, there’s people I know from the events I go to and do enjoy speaking to people there, and it gets me out which was the main reason for going to them in the first place.

    For the longest time I never went out much after University I hardly ever went out even when I was working I only went out a couple of times a year, once I joined SuperMondays group I started to go out more and have since gone to more events such as NEBytes and more recently the Ignite100 events, DesignInterests and finally joined Codeworks where I’ve met some interesting people and gone to events like the PUD and plus got the chance to write articles and went to things like the Nokia Design Event at the Baltic which I really enjoyed and got the chance to do things I never would have got the chance to do otherwise, or wouldn’t have had the motivation to do so.

    I know I need people to talk to and friends are there when I need them, which was great to know, I’m not sure what I would have done without some of the support and messages I got on Twitter - I think it was clear I was in some trouble and needed help or just someone to talk to! It was nice to see people care about me for a change, I always thought people mearly tolerated me - sometimes I lend up saying or doing the wrong thing, and I do realise I do this and try to minimise this now as much as possible and know I can be a right idiot sometimes, but nice to know people are there to talk to if I need it - which I did.

    Also I’ve found writing about things has helped whether that be this, on Twitter, or Facebook - I’ve always kept my feelings and personal stuff to myself but it was starting to eat away at me and I could’nt be that way any more - I don’t think I’m the same anymore, and don’t want to be, I want to better myself, get out more - the alternative I don’t even want to think about, but I had considered it and have had some pretty low points and have done some stupid things recently but it’s time to be getting back on track!