Feeling more positive

In the past few months and weeks I’ve been at my lowest for a long time and thanks to a lot of help and messages from people I know - I think I’ll be ok, not had too many problems but seem to have had them all at once, and was a little overwhelming.

All the support I’ve had wasn’t expected but was given and made a huge difference even just being out and meeting new people has been really great and realise this is why the problems have been so tough for me is that I didn’t do this before or realise the support I needed was there if I needed it - I can’t just be ok overnight but I need to make a fresh start and put to rest the issue of not just the recent past but older issues long not dealt with that I think were still always there.

My main aim this year is to be more outgoing, and go out more - still finding that hard to do but the main thing is that I’m trying, not going to let a few things get me down and lose the momentum I’ve built up, there will still be things to deal with but I think I’m Ok with that and look forward to making a fresh start and feeling more positive.

Today is the first day I’ve started to feel that things would get better, before I was just kidding myself but I still feel a little down as each time before I was just kidding myself and wasn’t fully honest with myself - but I’m looking forward a little more to this year and hope to make it different, I can only try and make the most of what I am and even what I’ve done so far like going out on New Years (for a bit) or going out on Monday it’s so far so good and I’m actually reluctant to stay in now and don’t want to be stuck in on my own and that feeling is starting to grow - rather than diminishing like I thought it would - that feeling has grown.